Friday, August 14, 2009

Overwhelmed

This week I am feeling very overwhelmed. I was talking to a partner in my firm yesterday about another big decision yet to make (move or not move right now) and he said "Are you sure you want to add another stressful even to your year?". He pointed out that most of the stressful things that happen to you I have covered in one year...here's a recap:
  • July 2008 - Daddy had a stroke and we discovered he had cancer, became engaged
  • September 2008 - moved into our current house
  • October 2008 - got married to the love of my life
  • November 2008 - my office moved
  • January 2009 - was blessed with pregnancy
  • March 2009 - my Daddy passed away
  • June 2009 - began the sale process of Daddy's business
  • July 2009 - Brian had shoulder surgery; a unforeseen lawsuit surfaced (too much to go into)

To come:

  • October 2009 - our precious little one will be born
  • October 2009 - hopefully documents to be signed selling the business (the process will go until July of 2010)
  • Fall '09/Spring '10 - move???

Now, don't get me wrong. A lot of these things are wonderful blessings, and I wouldn't change it for anything. However, I am feeling very stressed out. I know that all these things are not happening to me right now...and now that new country song "Sounds Like Life" comes to mind. Yeah, it is life. But geez...I just want a break. I don't want to sound whiny, and I am very very strong. I can handle it. I know that God doesn't give us anything we can't handle and I trust Him. It's just hard sometimes...I'm sure we all feel that way.

We found out yesterday that our house is worth less than what we owe - which is the current situation for a lot of America, I'm sure. However, we were also given the news that it may not get better...it may get worse. We know we want to move in the next 2 years, but we're faced with should we do it now? Just cut the bleeding? I'd hate to leave Kenna's beautiful nursery before she even gets to use it! And on the other hand in my head I hear myself say "You should be thankful that you do have a home, a job, etc". Yes, I am thankful. I have a wonderful husband, amazing actually. A little girl on the way. I am so close to my mom and sister. I have a secure job. We are blessed in so many ways. So then I get frustrated at myself for being frustrated. I guess all I can do is pray.

On another note - my first baby shower is tomorrow and I am soooooooooo excited! Mama and Christi have worked so hard on it. It's going to be so fun to see all my family and friends :) Kenna is going to be one lucky (spoiled) little girl!

Friday, August 7, 2009

7 months ya'll!

Yesterday marked 28 weeks, so 7 months! I can't believe it. I don't understand though why they say you're pregnant for 9 months when it's really 10... We're getting really anxious to meet this little girl that does dance aerobics in my tummy almost all day long! Here are some recent belly pictures - the pink/purple dress is 26 weeks and the white pants, brown shirt is yesterday - 28 weeks!






We also have some new additions to her nursery. The glyder that mama got us for her room came in. We also got a white bookshelf and a new lamp. I love the lamp because it's a touch base, 3 settings. That'll come in handy in the middle of the night! Christi is working on doing a little painting on the wall too. The dashes represent where a little bee has been flying...she's going to do the bee hopefully sometime this week.



We went to visit Grandma about a week and a half ago. It was her birthday, so I took off work and me, Christi, & Mama went down and spent the night with her. The next day we took her out to lunch and did a little shopping. She has on her birthday present from me - a tshirt that says "I'm going to be a Great Grandma" :) My Grandma is the sweetest woman, and I hope that she'll be a big part of Kenna's life!
We've completed 3 of the 6 classes for Childbirth at Baptist Hospital. I really enjoy going to them. We have learned a lot, and I especially like how at the end of class we practice our "relaxation techniques" where she turns off the lights and Brian gets to massage me and help me feel relaxed! Last night we saw what an epidural looks like and watched one being given...doesn't look TOO bad...I think I'll try and wait for as long as I can before I get it. I don't want to be stuck in the bed for hours and hours. I think I'd like to be able to walk around. We'll just play it by ear :)
Tomorrow is our friends Todd & Nicole's little girls birthday. Izzy will be 2! I'm painting her some letters for her room like I did Kenna. I'm so excited about them!
That's about all that's going on for us right now...we love each other and our life together!

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